hurmmm...holidays!.get's me thinking...

don't you just love when holidays come?? snugging yourself under ur buchuk blanket which you haven't washed 4 ages, waking up after that and eat...and continue sleeping till the next day...i just woke up from sleep 10 minz ago after sleeping at 4pm...it was cooooool...so my holiday is going to be pretty much the same...NOTHING!! juz studying [me??] and online-ing...blogging maybe...definitely sleeping and eating more [ya..that's more like it!]..it's been 3 weeks now my dance class got cancelled..my sir is bz..and i, being a lazy pig, din even practice my dance ONCE!!...sometimes i sit and wonder, whether i actually want this...but when i ask myself, i actually do really want this badly..but y am i so lazy?? i don't kow..i have this
'' i am a good dancer '' at the back of my head i guess...my dance teacher...the previous one of course..has practically installed that feeling in my head 4 5 freaking years...everything is '' roshni your good '', '' look at how roshni does it '', '' roshni you're the best student i've ever had ''...you know what the worse part was..i wasn't any good actually...so i have put the thought of 'i am the best' kinda thing in me 4 5 years, and when i moved on to another sir what did i find out?? i actually sucked the whole time...it took him 1 freaking year to ''renovate'' me...and yeah, i suffered severe scolding and insults..but i'm thankful to him that now, atleast, i am better than what i was..when i sit and wonder how would i actually be dancing if i continued practicing my dance with the previous teacher..man it gives me GOOSEBUMPS..i would have made a total fool out of myself...i really want to be a proffesional dancer...deep down...but why am i not working my butt out in being one..i don't know..i want to change this all...i want to really impress my sir..i want to prove him wrong...i want him to think that i AM good...my class is most prolly on saturday..i have 2 days to work things out...to tell myself i have to practice..i have potential..it's juz that i'm giving too much face for myself..hurmmm...got 2 stop doing that...but let me tell you this, i WILL become a proffesional dancer...a famous one...and make my sir very proud of me! mark my words guys...i ain't kidding...